Date: 11/12/2010

Hatred in Halfway of my Life
by Jan-Ian

I work hard!
i love being tired!
In fact i dont stop
moving around
doing my part in my family
just to break some sweat.
Work until i fall asleep.

I hate coffee!
just as i hate sweet things.
Yes! chocolate isnt exception.
It gives me pain!
It turns my heart to pieces!
It triggers my insanity
within.

The voices of regrets keep
echoing in my head!
I hate that feeling!
I hate staying awake
and giving myself a time
to think of the failures i done.
I want to sleep!
even though theres no assurance
i can glimpse the gift
of another day.

I hate calendars!
It brings back old memories
and highlighten the "what if".
And so the clock ticking
breaking the silence.
I hate how it flies so fast!

I hate to hang out with crowd.
Giving some Mona Lisa's smile
and contradicting my feelings
just to make sure
i wont look stupid!

I'm a prisoner
of regret!
A prince of insanity!
A hero fallen
in the battlefield of love.
I know im in a deep shit
right now
and i dont know where to start.
But one thing is for sure,
i can stand up again!
Im not that weak you know!
I have lots of things to show!
Im still not doing my best!
Im just Halfway of my Life!


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